Scene Reflection

After finally filming the balcony scene, I believe that I have grown as both a director and an actor. I am not used to watching myself act, so being able to play back the performance has allowed me to reflect on mistakes that I had not even realize I was making. Overall I believe that the scene went well, but there is always room to improve. I was able to memorize all of my lines in the end, and I only missed a line at the end of the scene, which was an improvement from the beginning of the filming process. Filming lasted much longer than I had expected. Since I was giving myself specific blocking and goals during the scene, it made me turn into a perfectionist. It took many tries and changes to get the scene to it's last draft. There will little things that made me frustrated, and once we started filming it was easy for me to get flustered, since I knew that I would have to look over the video later and reflect on it.

I believe that I could have used more emotion and hand gestures, or even moved around more. Once I watched the video over, everything about the scene feels dulled. I thought I was acting almost to the point where it could have been over-the-top. I was wrong though, since the scene looks awkward and uncomfortable. I feel like the scene would have been more put together if we were able to film it in a definite place, with costumes, and maybe a prop or two. I did not think that I needed to include those things, but now I realize that I needed to be more organized and strict in planning and the final filming. I am thankful that this scene was more of a practice for the IB, since there were difficulties with my original partner and filling in his character. It turned out much better than I thought it would once Lindsay stepped in, and I appreciated how patient she was throughout the process.

I believe that I portrayed my character well throughout the performance since I understood what Juliet was saying. It was difficult at first to choose the right emotions since I did not fully grasp the details of the script. Once I was able to highlight the correct emotions on my script and practice with it, I was able to adapt my ideas to fit what was necessary for the scene and my character. In my head I knew exactly what was going on, but I do not know if the audience would feel the same way. I felt like my emotions were choppy and inconsistent throughout the scene. This could have been because I was nervous about them, but I am not completely sure. I understand now that I need to be extremely specific in how I deliver each line and gesture. They have to stay sharp and consistent, or else they look confused and wishy washy. I am glad I got the opportunity to perform this scene and reflect on what I felt went well and what did not. I have grown immensely as an actor since I do not usually go back and look at what I did right and wrong in a final performance. I believe this will help me when I act in the future, and I hope to improve.